'we have a choice between doing what is right and what is easy. you are not alone, you have friends here'...dumbledore
total harry potter geek. but if you didn't know it came from a movie, or even a harry potter movie it makes sense.
sometimes doing the right thing is easy and sometimes not.
the days ahead (one at a time though) will be difficult and i have the choice to do what is right or what is easy. pretty sure i've used up all my easy cards, and will be doing the right thing. maybe a few will be easy, i don't know.
sobriety changes everything and affects everyone. you hope in a positive way, however that isn't always the case. or maybe i could look at it as, it affects everyone and everything just the way it is supposed too.
with much certainty, i can say i do not like what is happening and the feelings (there is that damn word again) i must plod through. i have to believe that this all is happening for a reason and i will be ok no matter the outcome.
would have been considerate of the ol' HP to have waited to through this at me a little later as i am still dealing with the loss of a parent. but, i don't get to make those choices or control these types of things. all i know is it has to be done and i am trying with all my might, to handle the situation with restraint of pen and tongue, mean what i say, say what i mean but it say it nicely and to try and have some sort of grace. anyone that knows me, knows i am not graceful in any sense of the word. but here is to trying and being willing.
tomorrow is a new day and i look forward to waking up and seeing what it brings. period.
life goes on.
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