suggestions

aaaah...some relief. mentally and emotionally that is; not from the heat!
it is pretty miraculous if you are willing and listen to suggestions and take them. by doing so, i am in the moment these days. certain aspects of my life are not perfect, nor will they ever be, but, i don't have to figure it out this second. i do not have to have the answer this instant. and for most people, we expect instant gratification. our society is based on that these days. how many new phones come out per month with faster this and that? when you are an alcoholic, or one in recovery as well, you want it when you want it and you want it yesterday. and it just can't be that way anymore. it just can't. that slowing down of the mind, body and spirit is what keeps me in the moment. of course i am not always that way, i am learning, but the more i learn the less i know. it is quite odd really. if i can remember all will be well if i just let it go, then it shall be just that. simple but i can make it so complicated. how? because my natural instinct is my will, not my higher power's will.  and to be honest, an alcoholic that is sober is in an unnatural state. that is my opinion and from what i have heard, others as well. 
so today i keep walking. today i will just be. and i am grateful to be a sober woman!!