Save me a seat

i haven't been to a meeting in a few days and i can feel it.  i'm getting a bit 'wiggy' because meetings keep me grounded. i don't have a desire or craving for a drink, but i do have the desire and craving for a meeting; to be around people that understand. 

having a family and it being close to the holidays, sometimes we forget to put ourselves first.  in the past few days, i've slipped a little with that and i feel the residual affects.  i am a bit more anxious, less serene, a tad crabby.  the good news is, i know it is because i haven't gotten my butt in a seat and listened.  i need to be reminded that i'm an alcoholic even though i feel good and don't physically crave the alcohol. 

this time of year, my excuse for drinking is all the chaos and the energy levels. i'm very sensitive to energy and not having that nervous system depressant to take down the energy levels that i feel internally, is going to take some strength and inner feelings of peace; that is why i need a meeting.  they are my medicine.  so, today i will get my butt to a meeting and tomorrow morning do the same.  and i can guarantee i will feel better. it's that simple!