got a bit of resentment going on today. just a bit. i am resentful about two things. one, i feel like it really is karma and i don't have a leg to stand on by bringing it up. the other, is just simply annoying. i've gotta think it through before i talk about it. what bothered me more? and it's all about in the way you discuss it with that person too. but this is all new because i have always thought of this person as fucking perfect and in reality, they aren't. we are humans and make mistakes (clearly i know this concept VERY well). and sometimes i want to just stamp my feet like a bratty kid and say 'this isn't fair'....and it's not all about drinking either. it is about different roles in life and our responsibilities too. a whole new ball game when you can't drown your resentments in a bottle of wine or ignore them with vodka and pretend everything is okay. it catches up to you at some point. it's all good...it's part of the process. and i'm not pissy, just resentful but it isn't taking me over which is a good sign. and you know what, i'm sure as hell not gonna drink over it...cause nothing is fucking perfect!
As people change, relationships change.
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