blow me friday

fridays stink.  it's an old boy friend that you broke up with and he keeps stalking you. at almost four months of sobriety, when friday hits, i still have the instinct of 'woohoo...something fun is gonna happen, i can drink and it be socially acceptable'.  and the fact of the matter is, i can still think something fun is going to happen, but no drinkie poos.  problem is, like i've said before, learning to live sober is difficult. what in the hell do you do on a friday night if you aren't around alcohol? i'm not a movie person; if i am going to pay 20 clams to see a movie, i want to be in my own bed with my pjs on and be able to pee without missing any of the movie.  not really into bowling, but if someone gave me a clear ball with a wicked rose in it, maybe i could become a fan.  it wasn't like i was out on the town every friday night, but i sure as hell would be drinking.  but what do you do? alcohol is everywhere and i'm down with that, but, i don't know, i clearly am drawing a blank.  i laugh sometimes reading some of the AA literature as it was written so long ago (they have updated it slightly), and they recommend taking up new hobbies. yeah, awesome, but i don't want to knit, macrame, play cribbage or bridge...nor do i want to take up golf (at least not now) or any other activity a senior citizen would do. jesus, i'm an alcoholic not in a nursing home.  i need ideas. reading is dandy when i'm in a mellow mood.  i hate organizing so i'm not going there, don't even mention cleaning that is just immediately destroyed and just pisses me off. i don't paint. well, i do paint but it is usually my toenails.  i write all the time. yay for me. cooking has lost its allure due to being a short order cook for the three spawn.  baking is off limits because i have to follow directions.  ya see where i'm going here? i have no imagination, no creativity. what can i do on a friday night that is fun, not for the elderly and will put a little kick in my step? i guess i will continue to come up with things i won't do (power of positive thinking HA) and ask my good ol' higher power to take away that compulsion that weekends mean crazy time. man do i have a lot of growing up to do. i'd really like not too....spring is coming so that is good and i will be able to get out of these boxy walls and get fresh air, go walking, shoot some hoops (that actually is very relaxing to me even though i stink) etc. oh and if 'family' time is mentioned, someone will be getting a punch in the stones or ovaries because winter IS family time.  don't get me wrong, they are swell, but a little space wouldn't hurt. guess i will get back to that laundry, it doesn't fold itself ya know.