i did

i went last night. got to dance a little...did a lot of people watching...
the best part about the whole night... at no point did i desire, crave or want a drink. NOT ONE TIME! it was so normal for me NOT to be drinking. i think i may have just tilted the world's axis by saying that. very interesting watching people...some drinking like a 'normal' drinker, some just living it up and some just whoa! and i don't care or judge, cause it's not me. i may be tired this morning from staying out past my bedtime, but i remember everything and don't feel sick.  there were moments where i did feel badly for some people, they were younger, but just thinking, yeah your tomorrow is gonna be a waste of a day. god knows i've had a lot of those.  i left a bit before the show was over so not to be on the road with everyone and i saw three different people passed out in their cars. i just hope the key wasn't in the ignition cause that is a dui up here...oh and i saw a drug deal busted inside the show, cops and everything...and lots of weed being smoked at first...which seriously had me dying laughing because, you can't smoke in bars up here sooooo....it's a bit obvious. just funny that's all. those dudes got kicked out too. so here is an example of how many baby steps i've taken : i asked the bartender if they had hot tea or coffee!!! hahaha...they said no, but they should. i didn't feel too terribly stupid for asking, mainly i asked cause i was freezing, but i settled on some cranberry juice. so yeah for me for trying something new and doing it without my crutch.