i woke up this morning to a lovely email from a childhood friend. i teared up as i read their words. they were touching but more importantly that validated a period of time that i thought was invisible to others. we are the same age and yet, they knew something, felt something was not quite right. their words were like a heaping bowl of mashed potatoes; complete comfort.
i had a lovely visit with one of my best friends up here in RI. they have been incredibly supportive since the day i told them that i was an alcoholic. i don't know. it's so strange sometimes because words can hurt or they can heal. lucky for me today, they were all healing. i was teachable today. i realized that my normal isn't normal. sure, that could go for most people too. really, really hearing what i said out loud kind of made me take a step back and think, this is not right. i have to redirect my thinking. that's what i try to do everyday and god damn, it is exhausting. it is a rebirth. i know i'm repetitive in a lot of my blogs but that's how it goes folks. i heard repetitive garbage for so long, i need to hear repetitive positivity and love to take it one day at a time (cue schnieder and his wicked cool tool belt...)....i am so grateful for a wonderful, calm, peaceful, loving day with laughs. thanks my friends, you are priceless. xoxo
you're the priceless one in this relationship! oh, and i dig the schnieder reference haha) XO
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