sometimes being sober is lonely. i have friends. but right now i can't be in situations that they can be in...and in the fellowship, i have friends. but most are older, which is just lovely. i haven't been out and about in a long time and i am really dying to go out, but i have no one to go with me. i want to go hear (probably cheesy, but who cares), a bob marley and grateful dead cover band tonight. yes, there is a bar there, but that doesn't worry me. but i have never gone some place like that, alone and sober. if i was drinking, not a problem, cause that alcohol would just calm those nerves and nothing would matter. literally. so, i think i'm going to try something new tonight and take a huge leap outside my comfort zone. i am not in danger of drinking, so that's good. i think i'll go, alone, grab a soda, listen to some music and if there are enough people there, i will dance. i really want to just dance. what's the worst that could happen; i get there, can't get comfortable and i leave. it's worth the 10 clams to see if i can do it. i'm certainly not the first sober person to go and listen to music alone. right? RIGHT??? right.
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