no effing joke

i just came back from a meeting....found out that a wonderful, vibrant, hysterical, honest woman, with many years sobriety 'went out' either xmas eve or day and died. overdose of drugs and alcohol. i saw this woman every week and listened to her speak and always took something she said home with me.
this disease is no fucking joke. it will kill you if you let it. it doesn't matter how long of sobriety you have, how long you drank before you got sober. it will fucking kill you. this is surreal and absolutely devastating. i didn't even know her and yet, she is gone. her four kids are motherless, her husband a widow.
the sadness, confusion and reality of this news is completely overwhelming and a slap in the face to fucking wake up and do the right thing. my thoughts and prayers to her family.