ya know, i don't know if it's winter, or what, but i'm just blah. i'm feeling all out of sorts like i don't belong anywhere. i enjoy AA but i'm not really connecting with anyone. everyone there is absolutely wonderful, don't get me wrong, but i just feel like i'm the kinda girl that needs AA but for the foul mouthed, perverted kinda gal. ya know? like i just don't feel like i am able to make connections with women. they are all wonderful, seriously, but what do i have in common with them other than being an alcoholic?, some would say i am being resistant or that i'm not getting involved enough, and they are partially right. but i don't have a lot of time to get involved. the resistant part i suppose i should work on. pray more? i just don't know. round and round we go.....it just all goes back to that lonely feeling. being lonely when there are people everywhere. oh god, i hope i don't make anyone slit their wrist with this blog....sheesh.
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